she is untraceable of any pain right now.

probably because my brother is in the house.

whatever happiness she feels every time my brother is around, she cannot hide it from me. i wish i can do something for my brother for making mama happy.

but she doesn't look the same anymore.

i am starting to get scared.

i am not even half way of the plan i planned for her.

Papa Jesus, make me strong for her. 

When Not In Pain

When she is feeling okay, she would join me on Skype and would pose like this.

Hope she would be feeling like that everyday.

Always the playful and happy Mama.

Hope the pain just goes away.

Another Day Of Painful Event

I was on Skype with my mother tonight. She was on paid and so did I just by looking at her.

Most often I would brush her complain off, not that I do not care, but I slowly began to surrender her pain to  the Creator. Nothing that I can do much now.

With me miles away from her and technically penniless, I am totally useless.

Removing half the pain is what I am wishing I could do for her.

But all I can do right now is for Papa Jesus to take care of her and let her enjoy the remaining days of her life painlessly.

I was never a great daughter but I tried. We disagree on almost everything but I love her so much.

Hope you can help me pray for Mama.